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sick?

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We all sick, now and then, sometimes for long periods, sometimes for short periods, but I'm sure that everyone has gotten sick once or twice before. When we're sick, its because our immune system is down and weak, and we fail to fight against the bacteria and germs out there. Same for our spiritual health. We have to make sure we are spiritually fit, in his Word, in his Life and in his Love. If our spiritual immune system is weak, Satan can easily break into us and bring us down. We can't let that happen! For some people, it is because of a weak spot, for instance, the eyes may be weak, and one may be continuously looking at things that are not holy and are inappropriate, or maybe its one's mind, that their judgement is clouded at times, and they easily give into temptation. When we're sick, doctors give us medications that treat what is wrong, it doesn't treat our entire body, but only what is wrong. The antibodies or drugs go right to the source, and

mistakes, not failure.

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Everyone makes mistakes, and everyone isn't perfect. We've all fallen short of God's glory. But although we make these mistakes, and stumble, we cannot admit failure. Today was another embarrassing worship session for me. I always seem to somehow mess up on stage, and make a fool of myself. Do i save it well? I don't know, but today during a particular song, i was in the moment and thought the song was over, but apparently it was just the interlude, they played longer, and then i realized it was the chorus again. I go to sing again, but then they die down, and i assume its the end of the song, only to realize its not. So I sing the ling really oddly, say "SORRY" and keep going. Mistakes. They're acceptable, but i can't admit failure and just walk off the stage. I just laughed it off. Whats best was that I could look out into the congregation, and see my friends smiling back at me, and i couldn't help but feel reassured, and smile as well. Ma

continue to pray.

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Im completely guilty of not spending enough time with Christ in prayer. Usually, its short and simple before meals, and long and lengthy before I head to bed. Prayer is so important with Christ, its our only form of communication with Him. Thinking about it, sometimes I really feel like I'm just using Christ, with all my requests, not only for myself but for other people as well. We've learnt to pray Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving and Supplication. I know that many of us usually just skip to supplication. God is not our vending machine for us to take advantage of. I really hope that i can continue to pray more, its hard to go to him in prayer sometimes, but its so important and i hope i can continue to practice that. Remember that prayer can be simple, it doesn't have to be formal and crazy, God hears you, you can cry out, you can speak softly, he's listening. verse of the day: Mark 11:24 24  Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believ

c'est bien.

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Reflecting on the past week, i think my week was a hundred times better than the week before, I could smile on the windy, rainy walks to school, i could laugh genuinely and be joyful. God is good. Im so happy that things picked up. Im in a very content place in my life right now. Although there are still struggles, and hardships i feel like so much has been lifted off. I know God will allow more challenges to come my way, but I'm ready to take them on knowing they will only make me stronger. There isn't much content to the post, but after such an amazing week, i really needed to be thankful for what God has given me, the people, the opportunities and the infinite blessings. Praise God for an amazing week. He is Good. verse of the day: Psalm 97:11-12 11  Light shines  on the righteous       and joy on the upright in heart.    12  Rejoice in the  Lord ,  you who are righteous,      and praise his holy name.

Journey: Guangxi

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Unity. Unity is necessary on all projects, on all levels, to have a good communication, and good relationships with one another. Without unity, the team can easily fall apart. Especially in a missions trip, when you're in the battlefield, you need all the support you can get, and without it, its extremely easy for Satan to tear and bring you down. There are four main things that will break unity. Gold. Resembling material possessions, if we have an attitude of wanting something to gain out of it, may it be money or a gift, its isn't the right attitude to serve with. You're there to give, not gain. Glory. Serving and helping out, you are usually using your gifts and talents to glorify God, but if you are doing it with intentions of receiving praise and to show off your talents, for your own glory, that is also the wrong perspective to view ministry. Guys/Girls. Ministry is not an opportunity to mingle and to get to know others, brewing relationships, especially

The I's Of The World

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We've taken over. Walking home today after school, on such a beautiful day, i looked up to the sky to see this aircraft flying by. I don't know what it was, the point of view, or the blue skies, but it looked really ... "majestic"? What hit me was that there were people on that plane. And I soon realized how advanced our society is now, that we've taken over. There are people on land, there are people underground, there are people miles under the ocean, and there are people miles into the sky. Although I believe that God gave us this earth for us to live in, but thinking about how much we've used it, and how we aren't taking care of it. Society today is all about "i". Think about it, iPhone, iTunes, Apple has most definitely channeled that "i" concept. Even in the real world, people are constantly thinking about themselves, and using others to get to the top. We've become really selfish in our thinking, and we often forget to

change is coming.

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Watching Glee tonight, it's extremely relevant at the moment because the kids at McKinly High are graduating, and they're basically going through the phase at the same time as us. As they await their university responses, as they plan and start to prepare to move out, as they say their final goodbyes and go their separate ways. Tonight's episode really helped me realize the change that was coming and how unprepared I was. I felt like I am somewhat prepared. I know where i want to go next year, and I'm excited to move out. Like I said in previous posts, all the academic portions I'm prepared and ready to go with, but with friends, family, relationships and people, I'm not ready to say my final goodbyes. I can't help but to think of what the last moment with the people of this stage of life will be like. What will happen our last time, everyone together. I cannot bear to think of how life will be like in a new environment with new people. Although these

holy living.

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  1   As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more.   2   For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.   3  It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality;  4 that each of you should learn to control your own body in a way that is holy and honorable,  5  not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God;  6  and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister. The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before.  7  For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life.  8  Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.   9  Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to y

more than just pain,

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12   Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you.   13   But rejoice in as much as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.   14   If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you.   15   If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler.   16   However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name.   17   For it is time for judgment to begin with God’s household; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God?   18   And,    “If it is hard for the righteous to be saved,    what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?”   19  So then, those who suffer according to God’s will should commit themselves to their faith

Endure ! - Part 2

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28  Anyone who rejected the law of Moses died without mercy on the testimony of two or three witnesses.  29  How much more severely do you think someone deserves to be punished who has trampled the Son of God underfoot, who has treated as an unholy thing the blood of the covenant that sanctified them, and who has insulted the Spirit of grace?  30  For we know him who said, “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” and again, “The Lord will judge his people.”  31  It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.   32  Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering.  33  Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated.  34  You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions.  35  So do not throw away yo

more tears?

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who would've thought there'd be more tears to come today. Today we had a first small drama practice with a group of friends for ACUPE night, our annual coffeeshop-like event, they decided to remake the chisel video (above) by the skit guys and i was re-watching it beforehand and something just hit me. I had to go upstairs and because i couldn't hold it. Im not sure what it was, but something was tugging at me. Listening to it carefully, it was exactly what i needed to hear. It was exactly what I was needed to be reminded of. I am God's original masterpiece. That was the catchline of the video. I always think lowly of myself, i don't think I'm worthy of anything, i don't think I'm good enough for anything or anyone, i can beat myself down to pulp, but with others, I'm able to encourage, and praise them, but with myself, its the complete opposite. I never have faith in my work, i need so much reassurance, its horrible. Sometimes i

Journey: Guangxi

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Second training. The missions trip is approaching fast actually, I'm leaving early july, so that gives us about less than 3 months before we depart and execute this. Today's training was surrounding the topic of Personality. For unity to happen, we must be able to understand each other and our teams, how we work, who we are as people. So we did a quick test. There are four animals. The Lion - the extrovert, task-oriented, strong, direct, but too dictatorial. The Otter - the extrovert, people-oriented, open and positive, but may talk to much. The Golden Retriever - the introvert, people-oriented, calm and sensitive, but can get hurt easily The Beaver - the introvert, task-oriented, has high standards, but is a perfectionist. I ranked as the golden retriever. And I can totally see it in myself, I'm sensitive, i try my best to sympathize with others, but I can get too sensitive and be hurt easily. Looking around at the new faces at the training, naturally, there are peo

Endure! - Part 1

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19 Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, 20 by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, 21 and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 22 let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. 26 If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, 27 but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of

dystopia

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Ever since diving into this concept in gr. 12 english, a dystopian society has always been on my mind. As a quick crash course, dystopia is the opposite of utopia. Utopia is the concept of having a completely ideal and perfect society, and therefore dystopia is how we cannot have a perfect society, where things are corrupted and flawed. Nothing is perfect. Nothing is perfect in this world. You'll never find a person who has the whole package, and be the perfect soulmate. Eventually you'll find something about them you may not be fond of. Society and media today understand this very well. I've seen in several tv series where they talk about dating, but how every single person they may date has a package, whether it be clingy, or messy and unorganized, nobody's perfect. Although we understand such things, we are still going to that utopian world. We're constantly trying to make electronics, develop technologies that will last forever, and will never fail us. Has it

music.

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Tonight I was lucky enough to attend Bayview Secondary School's spring concert. To start off, I have a story for you. So I totally thought it was at their school, so i arrive at 6:45 as my friend told me to come earlier and the parking lot was completely empty. Scrambled in and found out it was at unionville. I had to drive home, and finally get my dad to drive me there. And i was late. And missed half of my friend's performance. How embarssing. Anyways, listening to the music, and watching the band, a few things crossed my mind. How music is so universal, and how it brings everyone together. You can take it from the musical point of view, where there are so many different instruments, from the brass, the woodwinds, where you can be even more specific, the tuba, the trumpet, the oboe, the bass clarinet, how things so different, yet come together to make such a beautiful harmonic sound. From a person point of view, looking at all the students playing, some are athletes, some a

zero gravity.

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That feeling, when you're in outer space, where they're no gravity, nothing, you're just floating in space, and there's nothing. nothing to grab onto, nothing to ground you, keep you in place. You're just floating there, helpless. thats how i feel today. As if time has froze, and I'm stuck in my body, unable to escape, stuck, and there's absolutely nothing i can do. Things have been rather rough, but today, it just all piled up. I woke up today knowing and having a gut feeling that the day wasn't going to go well. And it didn't. From not feeling well physically in the morning, to being plain out tired, having constant thoughts running through my mind that put myself down, Satan taunting at me, doubts, guilt, regrets, all piled up. It got to the point where instead of pushing myself to get through life day by day, today it was pushing myself to get through the next minute. And finally after my day was over, i couldn't take it. And i let it out. I

quote:

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this really stuck out to me during devos last night, so i want to quote it. Here it is: "The future can seem uncertain at times and often we fear for what might come. We worry about our worldly problems like what grades we get, what tests are coming and what our friends think of us. Its hard to look forward in a world that just seems filled with darkness at every turn. In our darkest hours, we must remember that God is by our side and he has already forgiven us. He comforts and protects us, guiding us in ways that we are unable to understand. God called us to turn from our sinful ways repent, because we were forgiven. Do not fear for the future, for God has a plan. Probably not a plan we can understand, but a master plan nevertheless. In this day and age where we have luxuries and lack nothing, we put very little faith in God. In the end we will lose sight of God if we turn to worldly things that will pass away. We do not know what our future holds, but if we put our faith in God

nothing to something.

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Ever since planning SNA this year for December, the message we were conveying really stuck in my head. The overarching message was that everything is meaningless. Everything fades, from relationships to materialistic things, that all things will fail us and that we are putting our hope in the wrong things. We should put our faith and hope in Lord Jesus Christ because he lives, and he's promised to love us back, unconditionally and eternally. We should put our hope in something worth putting our hope into. Knowing God will never fail and will never fade assures us that this is the right choice. After thinking that through, i keep thinking, why are we doing this then? Whats the point, of getting these academics, going to university, getting that degree that'll fade, working to have a career, why can't we just give up on this? I said that during our devotions last night at AGAPE and my counsellor gave me an answer that really got me thinking and really answered my question.

Prof vs. Student

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This was something interesting i saw on my Facebook newsfeed, take some time to read it. --- Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ? Student : Yes, sir. Professor: So, you believe in GOD ? Student : Absolutely, sir. Professor : Is GOD good ? Student : Sure. Professor: Is GOD all powerful ? Student : Yes. Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm? (Student was silent.) Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good? Student : Yes. Professor: Is satan good ? Student : No. Professor: Where does satan come from ? Student : From … GOD … Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world? Student : Yes. Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct? Student : Yes. Professor: So who created evil ? (Student did not answer.) Professor: Is there